Sick Days Stealing My Thunder

Where have I been?  Sick.  Sicker than a dog.  Have you ever had one of those mutant colds that just won’t go away?  Well, I have and the time is now.  I can usually kick a cold within 3-5 days, but this thing knocked me on my butt and is still the gift that keeps on giving.

Sadly, I couldn’t do yoga for several days due to being sick which kind of threw me off of my game.  I was really enjoying it, but now I feel like I have created an excuse to quit, so I forced myself back on the mat yesterday.  Must…refocus.

I find solace in the fact that I continued meditating when I fell off of the yoga wagon.  I haven’t let zen escape me just yet!   For the first several weeks, I felt like it hadn’t been doing much, but I do find that it is helping create a calmer me in the past week and a half, especially at rush hour.  Unfortunately, it hasn’t helped with my insomnia, but little does.  Also, I’m not the most patient person, so I am sure I will see the fruits of my labor the longer I continue.

So I am glad to be back and being held accountable for my goals.  Here’s to no more sick days for a while!

 

Meditation: Some Were Not Made For Stillness…Yet!

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A Photo of a Calming Duck

 

If you have read my blog, you know that I am on a yoga kick this year.  It will happen, but as of this time, I have not missed a day since the beginning of this year, even if it is only 10-15 minutes, I am getting it done.  Though yoga has been a wonderful addition to my day, I have decided to add a little meditation to my rotation.  Why?  Because I live in NYC and need all of the calming I can get—especially riding the subway.

But in all seriousness, the daily commute can be stressful at times.  Sadly, many people do not know how to behave making the ride very uncomfortable.  Also, I am a Type A person and am in desperate need of some calming sessions as I can easily get stressed if I am not careful.  Not good for the psyche. 

So far, I have done pretty well and have been on a two week roll.  I’m pretty proud of myself actually, as sticking by things can be a challenge for me sometimes–especially when it comes to stillness.  I have trained myself to believe that being still and peaceful is a waste of time.  I am the queen of multi-tasking, and being asked to sit quietly and focus on my breath is asking a lot.

The issues I have had so far are not letting my mind wander.  I can’t help it, I have too many thoughts going on in my head at one given time.  I will think I am doing a great job and then I will realize I am thinking of pizza or taking out the garbage.

Another problem I am having is that it puts me to sleep.  I have insomnia so I appreciate it, but it doesn’t help me in the middle of the day.  Yet, at night, it doesn’t work.  Very odd.

So far, I am not sure if I have felt too many positives as of yet.  It does relax me for sure, but I still haven’t felt any major changes.  I think it will take at least 4-6 weeks to really feel anything slightly significant, but patience was never my strong suit.  I think I need to start keeping a journal of thoughts and activities, but again, I am bad at keeping routines as my free spirit doesn’t like to be limited. 

Still, I think this is a worthwhile venture so I will continue on in my journey to a better me!  And of course, I will keep people posted.  This way, I will be held accountable for my progress!

Sometimes You Win, Sometimes You Lose

The year is still young and for the most part, I have done pretty well.  There are a few things that I have not focused on such as my music and the cleaning of my apartment.  I feel as if I have let a lot slide these past few weeks for some reason.  I don’t know, I’m just having a hard time focusing on much which can be very frustrating for an overachiever.

I think the best way to go about this is to write in a journal expressing when and why I am feeling this way.  Rather than ignore the issue, I think it may be best to understand my procrastination and why it occurs.  Also, making checklists is a good way for me to get back on track.

The one thing I am excelling at is yoga.  I have been doing this steadily since January 1st even though at times I have wanted to quit.  Even though I have hit a slight rut in life, I am making yoga my anchor until I can focus on other things.  It’s good to know that all is not lost as long as I have my anchor.

I am in decent shape, but I would love to take it to the next level.  I think we all would and it’s something that can be focused on in small steps.  I have been consistent with yoga and haven’t missed a day in over two weeks.  Pretty impressive and I feel great!

Unfortunately, having gotten back into the yoga groove, I have realized that my eating habits haven’t been great.  I am really bad at drinking water.  It really is a challenge for me as I prefer coffee or nothing.  Not a great habit!  This week, I have forced myself to make sure that I drink one bottle of water to start off the day.  This is a great way to get two cups of water down before starting my morning coffee.  From there, I try to drink at least one or two cups more during the day.  Pretty impressive for someone who usually only drinks half a cup!

My diet has been carbs, carbs and more carbs.  Between pasta and after holiday sweets, I am doing my body no favors.  I love sugar and the idea of cutting down takes me to my sad place.  Still, I really want to try. Also, eating out every day for lunch is not good for the health or the budget, so I aim to change this.

Here’s to a healthier week!

 

 

Learning Languages

High on my list of New Year goals is learning more about languages. This is very important to me as I travel a lot and I also enjoy other cultures very much. Languages have never come easy to me, but I think most people feel that way. What I have learned is that you really need to focus on languages daily to grasp them, and I have been doing just that.

At this time, I am studying Spanish, French, Korean and dabbling in Italian and Russian. I do not plan on focusing on the latter as much as the first three.

Spanish: I have not missed Spanish once since the New Year. I feel this is the most useful language if you live in the US as it is widely spoken here. Also, I have a personal connection to the language and being fluent would mean a lot to me.

I find Spanish to be the easiest of the grouping, but that being said, sometimes it’s a challenge. I read and understand the language well, but the grammar has been a struggle. Also, when I try to speak it, I have a very hard time and feel self-conscious.

So, to help with this, I have started from the beginning of the Duolingo Spanish tree and am focusing on the language grammatically ground up. I have been focusing on every word and structure to make sure I understand them well. I tend to rush through things retaining little, so this will be a challenge. Once done, I will need something more intermediate.

French: French is tough. Yes it is a Romance language, but it is so much more structured than Spanish. Also, the pronunciation is much more difficult than Spanish to me. I was raised around Spanish speakers, so it is in my ears and rolls of my tongue. French, not so much. I have started all over with the tree on Duolingo along with working with skills on Memrise. Tough stuff!

Korean: How I love this language, but this is so different from anything I have studied before. I have made sure I have Hangul down pat and have started studying basic vocabulary and structure. Korean is considered one of the hardest languages in the world to learn, but I really stand by learning this. I have seen other English speakers accomplish this–I can to. I have been studying from books and Talk to Me in Korean online. I will let you know how this goes.

In the future, I will probably break the languages down in one write up because that will help me express myself better. At least I have accomplished the English language! J

New Year, New Chance

New Year, new me.

That’s what most would say.  After a rough couple of years, I decided to challenge myself more this year and get back on track to the person I would like to see again.  I invite others to do that as well, because we need to learn how to take care of ourselves positively first using strength to help others.  It goes with the old saying that we must love ourselves before we can love others.

Below are some of my goals.  If I put them on paper and force myself to be responsible, I will succeed.  That is my goal.  I will list all items that I want to work on below.  After the first month, I will reevaluate the ones that are most important to me and give them more focus throughout the year.  The others will still be there, but perhaps move slightly to the back seat.  Also, others may appear as life moves on during the year.  I want o hold myself accountable while I have the first day of the year momentum.

  1. Yoga for the next 31 days. This is hard with a busy life, but it has helped me so much in the past.  I welcome it back
  2. I used to practice hours a day but after a while, I became jaded.  This has to change.
  3. Guitar
  4. Learning the following languages Spanish, Korea, French, Italian and Russian. Specifically in that order.
  5. Clean this apartment and organize it once and for all. I’m tired of the clutter.  30 minutes a day until it is done.
  6. More photos, editing, and classes.
  7. Specifically math.  I am horrid at math.  No more excuses.  I need to get this done.
  8. Say yes to the universe more. Especially to invitations.  Sometimes I say no when I should be saying yes more.  One life.  Go out and enjoy it!
  9. Travel more. Yes, please!
  10. Be more positive. I will take note of a positive item and post this daily list at the beginning of the week.
  11. Read one classic a month. I never read too many and probably should.
  12. Read a positive how to book one a month and learn.
  13. Cardio twice a week. At least 20 minutes.  I walk 10-20 miles a week living in NYC, but I would like to do more high impact.
  14. Write a short story once a week.
  15. Study different topics that interest me in the month. Education is important.
  16. Cook more.
  17. Eat healthier. I do eat well, but I can take it to the next level.
  18. Drink more water. This has always been a big fail!
  19. Love and live!

Seems easy enough!

Have a wonderful New Year and join me on a positive journey!