Meditation: Some Were Not Made For Stillness…Yet!

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A Photo of a Calming Duck

 

If you have read my blog, you know that I am on a yoga kick this year.  It will happen, but as of this time, I have not missed a day since the beginning of this year, even if it is only 10-15 minutes, I am getting it done.  Though yoga has been a wonderful addition to my day, I have decided to add a little meditation to my rotation.  Why?  Because I live in NYC and need all of the calming I can get—especially riding the subway.

But in all seriousness, the daily commute can be stressful at times.  Sadly, many people do not know how to behave making the ride very uncomfortable.  Also, I am a Type A person and am in desperate need of some calming sessions as I can easily get stressed if I am not careful.  Not good for the psyche. 

So far, I have done pretty well and have been on a two week roll.  I’m pretty proud of myself actually, as sticking by things can be a challenge for me sometimes–especially when it comes to stillness.  I have trained myself to believe that being still and peaceful is a waste of time.  I am the queen of multi-tasking, and being asked to sit quietly and focus on my breath is asking a lot.

The issues I have had so far are not letting my mind wander.  I can’t help it, I have too many thoughts going on in my head at one given time.  I will think I am doing a great job and then I will realize I am thinking of pizza or taking out the garbage.

Another problem I am having is that it puts me to sleep.  I have insomnia so I appreciate it, but it doesn’t help me in the middle of the day.  Yet, at night, it doesn’t work.  Very odd.

So far, I am not sure if I have felt too many positives as of yet.  It does relax me for sure, but I still haven’t felt any major changes.  I think it will take at least 4-6 weeks to really feel anything slightly significant, but patience was never my strong suit.  I think I need to start keeping a journal of thoughts and activities, but again, I am bad at keeping routines as my free spirit doesn’t like to be limited. 

Still, I think this is a worthwhile venture so I will continue on in my journey to a better me!  And of course, I will keep people posted.  This way, I will be held accountable for my progress!