Sick Days Stealing My Thunder

Where have I been?  Sick.  Sicker than a dog.  Have you ever had one of those mutant colds that just won’t go away?  Well, I have and the time is now.  I can usually kick a cold within 3-5 days, but this thing knocked me on my butt and is still the gift that keeps on giving.

Sadly, I couldn’t do yoga for several days due to being sick which kind of threw me off of my game.  I was really enjoying it, but now I feel like I have created an excuse to quit, so I forced myself back on the mat yesterday.  Must…refocus.

I find solace in the fact that I continued meditating when I fell off of the yoga wagon.  I haven’t let zen escape me just yet!   For the first several weeks, I felt like it hadn’t been doing much, but I do find that it is helping create a calmer me in the past week and a half, especially at rush hour.  Unfortunately, it hasn’t helped with my insomnia, but little does.  Also, I’m not the most patient person, so I am sure I will see the fruits of my labor the longer I continue.

So I am glad to be back and being held accountable for my goals.  Here’s to no more sick days for a while!

 

Meditation: Some Were Not Made For Stillness…Yet!

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A Photo of a Calming Duck

 

If you have read my blog, you know that I am on a yoga kick this year.  It will happen, but as of this time, I have not missed a day since the beginning of this year, even if it is only 10-15 minutes, I am getting it done.  Though yoga has been a wonderful addition to my day, I have decided to add a little meditation to my rotation.  Why?  Because I live in NYC and need all of the calming I can get—especially riding the subway.

But in all seriousness, the daily commute can be stressful at times.  Sadly, many people do not know how to behave making the ride very uncomfortable.  Also, I am a Type A person and am in desperate need of some calming sessions as I can easily get stressed if I am not careful.  Not good for the psyche. 

So far, I have done pretty well and have been on a two week roll.  I’m pretty proud of myself actually, as sticking by things can be a challenge for me sometimes–especially when it comes to stillness.  I have trained myself to believe that being still and peaceful is a waste of time.  I am the queen of multi-tasking, and being asked to sit quietly and focus on my breath is asking a lot.

The issues I have had so far are not letting my mind wander.  I can’t help it, I have too many thoughts going on in my head at one given time.  I will think I am doing a great job and then I will realize I am thinking of pizza or taking out the garbage.

Another problem I am having is that it puts me to sleep.  I have insomnia so I appreciate it, but it doesn’t help me in the middle of the day.  Yet, at night, it doesn’t work.  Very odd.

So far, I am not sure if I have felt too many positives as of yet.  It does relax me for sure, but I still haven’t felt any major changes.  I think it will take at least 4-6 weeks to really feel anything slightly significant, but patience was never my strong suit.  I think I need to start keeping a journal of thoughts and activities, but again, I am bad at keeping routines as my free spirit doesn’t like to be limited. 

Still, I think this is a worthwhile venture so I will continue on in my journey to a better me!  And of course, I will keep people posted.  This way, I will be held accountable for my progress!

Things to Be Grateful For: Week 3

Sunday, January 15th:  Good friends who look out for you.

Monday, January 16th:  Having an easy day at work.  For once!

Tuesday, January 17th:  Finally coming around to watching a TV show that you have been ignoring only to find that it really is as good as they say.

Wednesday, January 18th:  The warmth of a kitten when you are feeling down.

Thursday, January 19th:  The train not being delayed for once.

Friday, January 20th:  A friend being flexible for what’s best for you even if it isn’t the most convenient for them.

Saturday, January 21th:  People coming together for a good cause.

Sometimes You Win, Sometimes You Lose

The year is still young and for the most part, I have done pretty well.  There are a few things that I have not focused on such as my music and the cleaning of my apartment.  I feel as if I have let a lot slide these past few weeks for some reason.  I don’t know, I’m just having a hard time focusing on much which can be very frustrating for an overachiever.

I think the best way to go about this is to write in a journal expressing when and why I am feeling this way.  Rather than ignore the issue, I think it may be best to understand my procrastination and why it occurs.  Also, making checklists is a good way for me to get back on track.

The one thing I am excelling at is yoga.  I have been doing this steadily since January 1st even though at times I have wanted to quit.  Even though I have hit a slight rut in life, I am making yoga my anchor until I can focus on other things.  It’s good to know that all is not lost as long as I have my anchor.

I am in decent shape, but I would love to take it to the next level.  I think we all would and it’s something that can be focused on in small steps.  I have been consistent with yoga and haven’t missed a day in over two weeks.  Pretty impressive and I feel great!

Unfortunately, having gotten back into the yoga groove, I have realized that my eating habits haven’t been great.  I am really bad at drinking water.  It really is a challenge for me as I prefer coffee or nothing.  Not a great habit!  This week, I have forced myself to make sure that I drink one bottle of water to start off the day.  This is a great way to get two cups of water down before starting my morning coffee.  From there, I try to drink at least one or two cups more during the day.  Pretty impressive for someone who usually only drinks half a cup!

My diet has been carbs, carbs and more carbs.  Between pasta and after holiday sweets, I am doing my body no favors.  I love sugar and the idea of cutting down takes me to my sad place.  Still, I really want to try. Also, eating out every day for lunch is not good for the health or the budget, so I aim to change this.

Here’s to a healthier week!

 

 

Things to Be Grateful For: Week 2

Below I have listed the one thing I am grateful for each day of this week.  It’s easy to get bogged down with negativity, but there is always light.  We make choices to see the good, or we don’t.  I am choosing to see the good as much as possible this year.

Sunday, January 8th:  Sleeping in after a long week!

Monday, January 9th:  Packages waiting for you at the beginning of the day.

Tuesday, January 10th:  Thanks to the gentleman who gave me his seat when I let everyone off of the train before getting onto the train at rush hour.  Everyone got a seat but me and even though I argued, he gave it to me for being so polite.

Wednesday, January 11th:  New coffee flavors.  Variety is the spice of life.

Thursday, January 12th:  Getting together with a wonderful group of trusted friends after a long work week.

Friday, January 13th:  Working with a wonderful supervisor after dealing with such poor leaders in the past.

Saturday, January 14th:  Gentle snow days that don’t make a mess or slow down transportation.

Snow Day

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NYC was hit by a snow storm today, and though it wasn’t anything major, it did last all day.  I am not a cold weather person.  I never have been.  Even as a child, I would stay indoors when the snow came. I detested the feeling of the cold wind and the feel of the snow in my hands and the chill through my body.  I was a California girl whose family had moved to a colder state in childhood against her will.

Later, I moved to NYC in hopes of attaining a dream, and in some ways, myself.  But the cold weather never agreed with me.  Yet, on days like today, I realize how beautiful the snow can be.  Even in NYC.

Today, I had a list of things I wanted to do so that Sunday could be my day.  But with the snow starting to fall in the early afternoon, I decided to sit in my plush red chair and just stare out the window.  I live in NYC, I’m always part of this crazy scene.  But for once, I decided to be an observer of this crazy city and watched the bundled up people walk by in their winter clothing.

Children played, men helped their female companions across the street, and the elderly hunched with age carefully stepped into the street as the cars slowly went by.  Even though I wasn’t “there,” I really was, and in a way I haven’t been in a long time.  It was beautiful.

So I read in my big, red plushy chair with coffee and a book in hand, gentle music playing in the background–my two cats playing at my feet.  And I realized that always “doing” doesn’t mean living.  In this moment, I was living to its fullest even if others may view it as idle.  And, I didn’t care, I was too lost in my peace.

Then chocolate cookies and chai lattes were made, and I took a deep breath and really lived.  Today was the New Year for me.

Staying Strong with Yoga! Day 6!

 

The year has started out a little crazier than anticipated, making it hard to stick to one’s goals.  I have done yoga every day since January 1st.  I almost skipped it yesterday due to a friend visiting the emergency room, but I came home, took a brief nap and got it done.  I’m sticking to goals this year.

I used to do yoga every day, but due to life circumstances, I had to give up a few things.  I loved how it made me feel physically and mentally.  After a while, it really becomes an integral part of my life.   When I quit, I really missed it, but sometimes life gets in the way.  So this year, I didn’t let life stop my 31 day goal even if I was exhausted.  Got to get it done!

I’m in decent shape body-wise.  I’m thin, but would like to be more toned.   So I will be adding cardio two times a week for the first month or two and possibly move it to three.  I walk a lot, but even with my fast New York clip, it isn’t enough.

Yoga is amazing, but I do want to clarify that it is not enough for weight loss.  It does help if that is what you need and is great for toning.  But for me, the toning is secondary to the mental aspects–it really clears my mind and puts me on the right path in life.

I will say, because I was out of practice, my body was a little sore the first few days; especially in my abs, upper body and neck.  The sore neck made it apparent that I was holding too much tension in that area and I stayed aware for the next few days of my posture and long lines.  Today, the soreness is minimal and I am ready for the next day’s challenge. Also, what was once a chore is now becoming the thing I look most forward to in the day.

Lastly, I have ADHD and my mind wanders.  The first few days I couldn’t wait to finish, but now, I am slowly getting more focused and able to stay on the mat longer without wanting to rush off of it.  I am really beginning to enjoy the mat more and more.

Bring on the yoga!